Crossroads..? Where are the signposts

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads; afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments will define us for the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be.
 The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief. And beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead...Luke OTH

There are moments in our live when we find ourselves at a crossroad, now I find my self at a dead end excuse the pun in there not intended believe me. there is no path forging ahead of me nor a a quick detour to the left. Just standing here with no idea which  way to go, If I turn to look back the road that got me here is evaporating too. There are no second chances or lets give it another go with G that life is gone, unless I want to embrace the crazy. Tempting as it is ...do not have the finances to play at being the crazy bitch.

So here I am what do I want ........ it has always been the easiest option for Tink to go along for the ride, share someone else's adventure. Or less scary to take along a travel buddy.  Solo has never been my ideal state of being, yet here we are me and the naughty dog, though he is not giving me a lot of direction ATM..damn.

God is not coming to the party either right now or at least his messages are lost in translations cause I can't hear them.

So the decisions I make today, will they define me or is it my lack of decisions that define me. So how does a scaredy cat like me push through ? Give me a substance to make me numb and I can rage against the world and all that it throws at me. But bare naked I am frozen in place every god damn fucking time.

Hear me when I say I have not desire to be the local lush but some dutch courage would not go astray right now. Bugger you god and your free will it does not feel like a gift today.