Tink's post card

Ever want to run away from it all, run away from the life you have created be it either good or bad. The reality is that it usually neither and both.

All the minutes, days, years filled with the monotonous drudgery of loving, all those loving friendly faces and then those you just want to smack. Memories, experiences, dreams fulfilled, abandoned or not yet reached their fruition. Leave all the things, the bills, responsibilities, expectations,the homes the children, pets and family , leave them all behind.

Just close the door behind you and walk away not look back go somewhere anywhere just away. There must be a place you can be invisible be nothing to anyone. Not be seen.

I want to go to away, in fact I don't want to walk I long to run there. Utopia where I don't have to show up !

I am not depressed or morbid. So don't worry.  I simply want a holiday from my life. I would love to go somewhere pretty and indulge the ugly me. I would lay on the sand warmed from the sun and snap and growl at anyone who dared approach me.I would fart and burp out loud.  I might not brush my hair or even my teeth. Spend all time in my pyjamas. not make any small talk or look for the silver linings. Talk about me to me, chatter on at length on topics that only interest me. Sleep wherever and when ever I want. Throw my rubbish both physical and emotional  all over the place with no concern who might step in it. What a luxury and I am off on rant now but I am indulging me. I would lie, steal cheat anyone I want to. I could even be brutal honest to people faces telling them all my private nasty thinking. Laugh hysterically at their discomfort, giggle about their misfortune. Bleat in self pity.... oops already there with that one.

I am so very very weary right now and if anyone else tells me the God does not give us more than we can handle I might just well...slap them...hard.

So here's the warning if you happen to bump into a cranky, crazy, smelly, negative soul muttering to themselves keep you platitudes to a minimum cause you might just end up with a black eye.

Good night  All  xoxox