It's called a process

Attempting ,to try, making an effort, giving it a go, make a run at, do your best , strive, tackle, seek, strive, experiment, endeavour , pursue, push on, undertake , practise

Learning , prepare , improve, brush up on, gain , train,  grasp,  imbibe, memorize, peruse, study, commit , teach, taught, absorb, retrain, attain

Minus , missing , less , absence, gap , deficient, negative, gone, solo, space, amputated, diminished ,alone , broken, not right , empty

Process, path, way , journey, travel, trip, road, direction, action, doing ,  proceeding , movement, steps , means, formation , progress, working  forward , backward, not static, 

and back to attempting......

hmmm

so climbing out... bit steeper than 1st anticipated ! Not giving up just ..... not hurting myself today.

Climbing Out

Ok I want out of this pit that I have exiled myself to, so how do I get out ? Any suggestions are gratefully accepted and maybe attempted. I need a plan love a plan always have any opportunity to list and spreadsheet I am all over ( I will deal with the control stuff later) right now I need to reconnect with my life. Rather than trying to imagin what my life will be with G absence I am going to have to go out and do it.

So here goes I have spoke to HP sure he/she/its on my side. This is my gratitude list for today 8/10/2011
friends who love me unconditionally

• my house
• my job
• for naughtiest dog Jax 
• that I have done no permant damage to my self
• summer is coming 
• 10 years is on the horizon
• tinsel is in the air 

Not bad for off the top of my head huh. So I am off to walk (have to try and move some of this winter weight I have accumulated) ...see you soon  xoxo