I can well I could....Bourbon, Valium, pot, coke the list goes on. But can my GP fix this with pills ?
Isn't this what I try so hard to fight, is this not the war I have wager for the past 10 years to live life on it own terms with no chemical intervention? Are SRI's not hypocrasy ..for gods sake I have not even taken codeine for a decade?
Is this life, grief or is it mental illness. I am now suppose to take drugs to accept. The sadness, wondering what the point of this existence is, the guilt, want to not live, missing him still all of this is this grief or am I depressed or has this broken me....
What difference will a script make? You know almost every day I get up, shower, clean, go to work, grocery shop,watch the TV, return the calls....do I really have to enjoy it too?
When is hurting too long...not enough ... just right. Will it stop all by itself or does it need intervention.
I swear if I hear the words "everyone is different" one more god damm time. Just tell me what is normal.
I think the past decade of life was pointed in the wrong direction. Except for G what was the point of it all...cause I know nothing after all. So much time wasted on the ramblings of a couple of drunks. WTF !!!
What have I missed ...... cause right now Just for Today it all means nothing. Life is no easier
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